I actually feel very, VERY depressed and frustrated with all that Steve/Bucky thing goin around just about everywhere.
Because I’m a devoted Stony shipper, always have been and always will be.
And seeing this all around, ya know, feels almost like…i dunno even how to describe that. It just HURTS and makes me want to shut out all possible ways to stumble upon it. Turn the computer off, quit tumblr untill that first wave goes a bit down…Sometimes I just want to forget all this ever happened.
I know it’s stupid, it’s immature, it’s bad to feel this way. But I feel like everyone around me is celebrating the way someone I love, is so great and happy with someone else. (Whom I also happen to dislike).
I know, I’m 32 years old, not 15. I am a very busy person, who’d better take time on getting ready to finish a second degree in June, move to live in a forgein country by autumn, and actually spend my energy on solving real life problems, taking care of my business and enjoy real life greatness, like a lifetime relatiosnhip with the best guy ever.
But I can’t still stop fucking feel this shit, while doing all of the above.
But I’m not going to give up to bad feelings. I will just start agressively make MORE Stony art. And make it real good.Better than before. Because that’s my way of dealing with things.