April172014

I actually feel very, VERY depressed and frustrated with all that Steve/Bucky thing goin around just about everywhere.

Because I’m a devoted Stony shipper, always have been and always will be. 

And seeing  this all around, ya know, feels almost like…i dunno even how to describe that. It just HURTS and makes me want to  shut out all possible ways to stumble upon it. Turn the computer off, quit tumblr untill that first wave goes a bit down…Sometimes I just want to forget all this ever happened.

I know it’s stupid, it’s immature, it’s bad to feel this way. But I feel like  everyone around me is celebrating the way someone I love, is so great and happy with someone  else. (Whom I also happen to dislike).

I know, I’m  32 years old, not 15. I am a very busy person, who’d better take time on  getting ready to finish a second degree in June,  move to live in a forgein  country  by autumn, and actually   spend my energy on solving real life problems, taking care of my business and enjoy real life  greatness, like a lifetime relatiosnhip with the best guy ever.

But I can’t still stop fucking feel this shit, while doing all of the above.

But I’m not going to give up to bad feelings. I will just start agressively make MORE Stony art. And make it real good.Better than before.  Because that’s my way of dealing with things.

April132014

I wonder, am I the only one who didn’t fall for Bucky’s incredibly boring  tragic dark charisma? I really felt very bored with him and all the storyline connected to him, ecpecially on the contrast with  other characters who were magnificient. (Fury!!! Natasha!!! Falcon!!! The scriptwriters and the actors did  some super cool job with them.And of course Steve. I love him being that divine mixture of chivalry, self confidence, and badassery. He was born to command…in all ways possible, especially because he’s  a real good guy. And I adore when good guys are in command…)  

I really wish Steve and Bucky’s friendship, if there has to be one (not in  a romantic way for me), was developed and written a lot better then it was in the Winter Soldier. The comicverse story of Bucky in all it’s alterations was  a lot more compelling and touching for my taste. Probably I just need something more to a character  then a dar moody look and a reason to say “oooh…pooor baby….” to really like him.  May be he lacked some screen time and more flashbacks. He was OK in the first Captain America movie, btw.

There is of course a great potential in Bucky’s story, but I felt like it got lost in the action, main Hydra plot, and in the sheer brilliance of other character’s dialogues and interaction. The single moment with Peggy (I’m a Stony shipper, by the way…so I was jealous) was a lot more powerful and  introspective on Steve’s personality, then the whole  story with Bucky. 

Probably that’s  due to some disbalance  in the script. 

But I’m among those rare creatures who didn’t even like Loki.  Though, in comparison to Bucky, Loki was fun to watch. At least. 

Just in case: i don’t hate Bucky. I don’t hate people who like him. I just expected the character to get to me, emotionally, after all the stuff I saw on tumblr regarding him, and when I finally saw the movie, I, unfortunately, wasn’t drawn to his story.
September102012
2AM
Finally I finished it. I thought I’d die all over it, because it was a difficult task to do, but I won this battle, for the sake of Stony love. ;-)
In my head canon it’s their first time, going all the way and stuff. I see Steve as mostly heterosexual, well at least that’s what he used to think of himself. And it took real effrot from Tony to seduce him. Their first time is a bit awkward, and they both feel uncanny, because Steve is a virgin and he has never thought his first time would be with a man, and Tony is not used to being on the recieveing end, and somehow, he never had the need to work for someone’s pleasure. It was always the other way around. All the people he had sex with, no matter women or (more rarely in my head canon) men, were trying their best to please him and impress him. 
And now he’s on to face the terra incognita, just as much as Steve does. But Tony wouldn’t bew himself if he didn’t try to look as if he’s expirienced and skillfull, and sure of himself. While Steve is brabe enough, to be vulnerable, and trusting, and anxious,  and opened to this new expirience. 
Actually I always perefer Steve being physically on top, but I also find it very kinky when Tony is posessive, and emotionally dominating, while being the recieving partner.
In this scene, it’s just minutes before Steve will take the initiative from him, and fuck him, just the way he likes it (finding out how he likes it) and it will make Tony loose control and drop all dis defences. 
The scene takes place at Tony’s house at Malibu. I remember there were huge windows and white or  ivory furniture.  
I hope you like it just as much as I do.

Finally I finished it. I thought I’d die all over it, because it was a difficult task to do, but I won this battle, for the sake of Stony love. ;-)

In my head canon it’s their first time, going all the way and stuff. I see Steve as mostly heterosexual, well at least that’s what he used to think of himself. And it took real effrot from Tony to seduce him. Their first time is a bit awkward, and they both feel uncanny, because Steve is a virgin and he has never thought his first time would be with a man, and Tony is not used to being on the recieveing end, and somehow, he never had the need to work for someone’s pleasure. It was always the other way around. All the people he had sex with, no matter women or (more rarely in my head canon) men, were trying their best to please him and impress him. 

And now he’s on to face the terra incognita, just as much as Steve does. But Tony wouldn’t bew himself if he didn’t try to look as if he’s expirienced and skillfull, and sure of himself. While Steve is brabe enough, to be vulnerable, and trusting, and anxious,  and opened to this new expirience. 

Actually I always perefer Steve being physically on top, but I also find it very kinky when Tony is posessive, and emotionally dominating, while being the recieving partner.

In this scene, it’s just minutes before Steve will take the initiative from him, and fuck him, just the way he likes it (finding out how he likes it) and it will make Tony loose control and drop all dis defences. 

The scene takes place at Tony’s house at Malibu. I remember there were huge windows and white or  ivory furniture.  

I hope you like it just as much as I do.

August292012
I promised to draw a sex scene….so here it goes. Just a sketch, so far. But I will work on it, some time later, I think.

I promised to draw a sex scene….so here it goes. Just a sketch, so far. But I will work on it, some time later, I think.

July122012
Also a quick one. 
But straight through the heart…

Also a quick one. 

But straight through the heart…

8AM
This was a quick one…just  couldn’t resist. ;-)

This was a quick one…just  couldn’t resist. ;-)

July112012
The midnight kiss.
I did it! 
As far as I see it, it’s the very begining of Steve and Tony’s  relationship. I guess, they didn’t even have sex, yet. Steve is still a bit uncomfortable about having a romantic relationship with another man, but he feels incredibly lonely is this world, utterly unknown and strage to him. He’s hungly for  a human touch, for being needed and to care for someone. And Tony falls for him, partly because he wants all the best for himself, and no matter how bad Steve irritates him at times, he knows, he admits it deep inside, that Steve’s the best. And partly, it’s because, it’s impossible not to trust Steve, even if you’re a someone, like Tony, who prefers a one night stand  to a steafy relationship. 
And the most important thing is, that Steve is very hard to get, even for Tony, no matter how charming he can be. It’s not a pose, not an attempt to  play a kinf of a game, it’s just, Steve is not the one, who jumps into anyone’s bed, unless he has feelings for this person. And it makes Tony both intrigued, irritated and desperate. 
When Steve sees his vulnerability beyond his mask of sarcasm and  everlasting optimism, he’s gives in…a little, just for a kiss maybe, but it’s bigger than a whole world that he’s used to own, for Tony.
And even though Steve is unexpirienced, and shy and even timid in some way,  when he makes a decision, he goes though and doesn’t stop.
And though it’s Tony, here, who lures him into a kiss, Tony it will be, who will fall, and be held in trustworthy hands, and looses his heart to someonw who can keep it and protect it.  

The midnight kiss.

I did it! 

As far as I see it, it’s the very begining of Steve and Tony’s  relationship. I guess, they didn’t even have sex, yet. Steve is still a bit uncomfortable about having a romantic relationship with another man, but he feels incredibly lonely is this world, utterly unknown and strage to him. He’s hungly for  a human touch, for being needed and to care for someone. And Tony falls for him, partly because he wants all the best for himself, and no matter how bad Steve irritates him at times, he knows, he admits it deep inside, that Steve’s the best. And partly, it’s because, it’s impossible not to trust Steve, even if you’re a someone, like Tony, who prefers a one night stand  to a steafy relationship. 

And the most important thing is, that Steve is very hard to get, even for Tony, no matter how charming he can be. It’s not a pose, not an attempt to  play a kinf of a game, it’s just, Steve is not the one, who jumps into anyone’s bed, unless he has feelings for this person. And it makes Tony both intrigued, irritated and desperate. 

When Steve sees his vulnerability beyond his mask of sarcasm and  everlasting optimism, he’s gives in…a little, just for a kiss maybe, but it’s bigger than a whole world that he’s used to own, for Tony.

And even though Steve is unexpirienced, and shy and even timid in some way,  when he makes a decision, he goes though and doesn’t stop.

And though it’s Tony, here, who lures him into a kiss, Tony it will be, who will fall, and be held in trustworthy hands, and looses his heart to someonw who can keep it and protect it.  

July92012
And once more, now a closeup in color.

And once more, now a closeup in color.

July82012
Some lineart to previous pic. And a closeup. ;-)

Some lineart to previous pic. And a closeup. ;-)

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